A tribute to Bud Moore
Bud
was an alcoholic from Tennessee. And he worked with me for only three
years but had a profound impact beyond those few years, but I
overlooked what he gave me and never thanked him.
The first time
I talked to Bud was when he answered a classified ad for skilled
repairmen. Three guys had called earlier and the job was already
filled, but Bud didn’t sound upset and instead, came back and said, ‘if
the other guys don’t work out, then I’m your man.’
I liked his attitude. I thought it over for two minutes and called Bud back and we started working together the next day.
The
day always found me at McDonald’s for lunch, and so Bud came along. We
hadn’t worked together more than a week, but he had taken note of my
bad knee and gimped-up walk. Out in the parking lot that day we saw a
woman limping to her car, so Bud pointed at her and looked at me and
asked, ‘is that a relative of yours?’
I rolled back and
laughed at what most would consider a crass statement because it was
funny. And it was a smart thing because I hadn’t spoken of my
arthritis, and that comment allowed us to become more open. Bud later
confided that my laugh at that moment convinced him to stay on with me.
Personal sharing turned the key to Bud, and he would have quit if that
bond wasn’t there.
Bud had skills to do anything mechanical, and
for the first time I had a worker who knew more and could work faster
than me on every project. Of course it turned into a competition to see
who would come up for air first and each of us was determined to
outmatch the other. It was a fun competition that he always seemed to
win, and that I always recognized in him.
My business was a tiny
one-truck operation that offered customers any kind of repair and
remodeling on their homes. We replaced siding, fixed plumbing, painted,
and did whatever general maintenance was needed. I hustled work during
off hours and passed flyers whenever things got a bit slow, but come
daylight, every day, seven days a week, Bud and I hit the job hard.
There
were some days that Bud didn’t show up, and I’d wait and worry if the
run was over, but next day, that noisy orange truck would drive up and
Bud would pop out with nary an excuse. He’d say, ‘if I wasn’t here,
then there was a reason.’ I knew not to inquire. And by adapting to Bud
I became aware that some people are alive just for that day.
Lunchtime
was probably the closest that we came to being friends. There was
always a class distinction I felt with Bud. He was from a poor rural
background and wasn’t totally comfortable away from his people. Part of
the reason might be that he lost his front teeth in a bar fight and he
used a long mustache to hide the fact. But it was more than that
because his demeanor changed abruptly when his family was around, and
he didn’t want me a part of that, so I avoided the topic unless he
offered first. There was always a distance between us. We just worked
together, and Bud wanted to keep the balance right there.
We
read the newspaper at lunch, and our daily conversation usually
centered on the articles and revealed that Bud was amazingly bright and
that our views were similar on political issues. Both of us imagined
that the rich take all and the working people are left with crumbs.
Bud
let me know he was a die-hard racist and claimed to have been robbed
twice by Black people. He certainly had some interesting stories to
tell.
One time he was stopped at a traffic light and a young
black kid jumped out of the car behind him and put a gun in the window
demanding money. Bud was incredulous. He was driving a beat up car and
obviously had little money, but he was drunk and here comes a robber.
Bud said he looked the guy straight in the eye and said, ‘fuck you
nigger,’ and then gunned the car to run the light. But the car stalled.
The
gunman shot Bud three times with a small 22 caliber; once each in the
leg and chest and one through the hand. He showed me the bullet scars
and said he made his way home and laid in the garage bleeding until
life-flight took him to the hospital. Bud was pissed that the police
said it was ‘drug related’ and they never investigated.
The
second robbery came when he was rummaging through his car looking for
cigarettes. Three black guys jumped him, but Bud fought back and bit a
piece of finger off before the attackers ran away with nothing.
Bud was a fighter. He was reckless but he played the game hard and had some of the best stories, and we used to laugh.
The
power company was constantly shutting off his electricity for
non-payment. He had money to pay the bill unless it was frittered away
on drinking. Bud got paid at the end of every day because he wanted it
that way. It was necessary for his sense of freedom. And Bud lived
free, so when the electric company shut him off, he simply went outside
and reversed the meter-head and voila, the power came back on.
Finally
the power company put a lock on his meter. Undeterred, Bud got a big
screwdriver and started prying on the box. It was nighttime so he was
depending on the neighbor’s porch light to see what he was doing, but
he was drunk and the screwdriver slipped deep into the box and shorted
out in a bright arc of light. Bud fell to the ground and when he
stood up, the whole neighborhood was dark. He thought he shorted out
everybody’s lights, but he was just drunk and temporarily blinded by
the arc, and a moment later when his vision returned he realized what
happened.
The funny thing was that we worked on electric
circuits frequently, and he knew there was no way to short out his
neighborhood power grid. It was just the drinking, and because of that
we shared a laugh, and it made a funny story that I repeated many times.
I
learned a lot from Bud. Maybe it seems trivial to some people, but I
always thought police investigated every shooting. Neither did I know
the power company turned off power by reversing the meter. But more
than that, I never pulled a meter head until Bud showed me how.
It
was Bud who told me about nail guns. I hammered nails for years and
never considered pneumatic power, but when Bud came aboard, we could do
so much more work that it became a necessity to do it faster. This was
back before the days when Home Depot carried air tools, so Bud was the
one who told me where to go and what to buy.
It was Bud who
told me about paint sprayers too. He and I painted all our work but we
used brush and roller. His hard work allowed the jobs to get bigger and
we needed a faster way to lay down paint. So I bought a paint sprayer
and wow, did that ever put out paint! We could do in two hours what it
used to take all day. Bang, the room was painted.
I made money
because of Bud, and had money to buy better tools because of his work.
Bud lifted me from a slow-moving antiquated contractor into a
streamlined production factory that started churning out professional
work.
There were other factors. The Houston economy was coming
back from the recession it faced in the early eighties. I was becoming
better known too and was maturing in my sales presentation, but the
nuts and bolts of any operation is the work you can put out and that
was where Bud helped me the most.
About this time I started
building a house. I had never built a house and had no idea what to do,
but I just started making plans. And now that I look back, I realize
the project wouldn’t have succeeded without Bud’s help.
I was
limited with arthritis and couldn’t climb into the rafters, but Bud had
been a framer at one time and he knew everything. Between him suspended
in the air overhead and me cutting wood and passing up the lumber, we
had the house ‘dried-in’ within two weeks.
Bud helped build the
cabinets and lay the tile and solder the plumbing but all he got was a
regular work-a-day paycheck while I gained an asset worth thousands.
The
house was the breaking point. Bud realized that I now owned tools and a
house largely because of his work, and he came right out and said it.
He threatened to quit and I said that was too bad because I was just
getting ready to promote him … and with that we laughed. I started
paying two dollars an hour more but the relationship was broken.
Other
problems emerged in Bud’s life about this time. He was in the garage
fixing the truck starter, but had gotten lazy and didn’t disconnect the
battery cable so when his screwdriver went to ground, the starter
cranked just enough to knock the truck off the jack and pin him against
the floor. He said his wife was inside the house and he was yelling for
her to come out and help, but she ignored him and he was losing breath
until a neighbor two doors down came over to see what was going on. I
guess she was tired of listening to his yelling.
His wife
decided to leave him, and he was distraught beyond words and crying at
work. I tried to comfort him by putting an optimistic face on her
going, but he was coming apart tried to commit suicide a few nights
later.
Bud always told amazing stories and the suicide attempt
was no exception. He showed me the bandaged cuts on his wrist four days
later when he returned to work. I was already privy to part of the
story because his wife called me two days later and told me how he cut
himself while they were on the phone together.
Back at work, Bud
filled in the details how his wife called the paramedics and somehow
the police got involved when Bud refused to answer the front door.
Evidently the police broke down the door and Bud went out the back
window and was climbing fences and running from the police like Rambo.
They finally corralled him when he walked back to the house, and they
wanted to send him off to the psyche-ward but he refused commitment and
they had to let him go. Of course by that time his wife and relatives
were at the house so everything was okay since his people were there to
take care of him.
I guess he lost a lot of blood since they had
to hire a cleaning service to come in and do the carpet. Bud was
laughing about the whole thing, especially the rent-house carpet since
his pit bull had torn big holes out of the floor in between eating
holes in the doors and walls. I never visited his home, but I guess he
and the dog pretty well wrecked that house.
The real problem was
drinking, and Bud was never going to stop. Unfortunately it cost him a
marriage, but worse yet, the people surrounding his life were members
of her family. Bud’s family was back in Tennessee and they were
scattered around and didn’t want anything to do with him, according to
what he said. So when he lost his wife, he lost his people.
His
father-in-law stepped in and took Bud under his wing which effectively
allowed the wife to move out. It was about this time that I changed
business plans and decided to do everything by subcontracting the work.
I told Bud that he could continue working for me but it would have to
be on a bid basis, and I argued that he could make more money that way.
I
lied to Bud to get rid of him. I planned to change businesses alright,
but I was going to specialize in painting houses and knew a couple guys
who were ready to come on board and could paint. It took a lot less
skill to paint than it did to remodel. My new guys didn’t need
craftsmanship to spray paint a house.
Bud and his father-in-law
did a couple jobs for me, and the work was acceptable, but Bud laid it
on the line and said they were too busy to help me any more. He was
smart and said what I didn’t have courage to say.
It was over
and Bud disappeared. I still got up every day and went to work using
the nail guns and paint sprayer, and over the years many workers came
and went. None of them were as capable as Bud, although some worked
nearly as hard. Some of them stole tools from me and told me lies to
cover their shortcomings, but Bud never did that. He was a stand-up guy
who gave me a boost in life, and he was aware of that long before I
was. He told me that he’d been offered a scholarship to West Point but
turned it down, and I believe it was true because of the man he was.
It
was maybe six years later that the phone rang one night, and guess who
was calling? It was Bud. And he had more stories to tell.
His
wife and her family were long gone and he was living with a man and his
wife who owned rental property along Martin Luther King Boulevard. Bud
was working for the guy doing maintenance work on the property and
still drinking heavy every night.
Bud revealed that he had
changed his mind about Black people after working in their homes. I
really felt he was telling me to make amends for the harsh words he
said before. Again it was his integrity showing through.
He
also revealed that he was dying. He told me that cirrhosis of the liver
had taken his health and they told him he needed a transplant, but that
alcoholic carpenters were not high on the waiting list. It was
hepatitis combined with alcohol consumption that put him at death’s
door. I asked where we should meet, but he declined, saying he’d lost
40 pounds and looked bad, so I didn’t push the issue.
Then it
was a month later when he called from his girlfriend’s apartment. They
were laying about the bed while talking to me, saying she was just
using him for the sex and they were planning to have sex as he died so
she would get the ‘death quiver.’ Lordy, it is morbid thinking back
about it, but he was in good spirits and living for the moment. He was
saying goodbye.
Six months later I called the man he was working
for and heard that Bud was forced to return to his family in Tennessee.
That must have been hard for him to go home. I never heard him say
anything about those people and understood the silence shielded a great
hurt suffered at their hands, but in the end, they accepted his return.
The fellow Bud worked for also told me that the doctors said he had a
chance to survive if he stopped drinking when the diagnosis was made,
but that Bud couldn’t stop.
He couldn’t stop drinking. It’s why
he never went to West Point. It’s why he was stuck working for a guy
like me. It’s why this likable charming man didn’t use his honesty and
work ethic to make greater things than he did.
I owe Bud Moore this tribute.
Gene Haynes