July 13, 2019
my mom had a beautiful heart
it was broken by alcoholic parents
and a divorce
her real father abandon without a word
went out for cigarettes
her husband was gone with nearly the same indifference and disrespect
she was a stubborn only child
hard determination and fearless i suppose
returning to bloomington because she had a friend there
who turned out not to be friend
with no family except the scraggle kids who were equally confused
she never recovered and it broke my heart
i guess maybe i never recovered either
tonight i'm missing her
she made beautiful stocking caps and sold them in her joyous way
so glad she didn t die alone
with my sister and brother by her side
she went quick
i was delayed
she was getting better maybe
but that night, life decided she would only get 62 years
sometimes i wish i'd hadn't moved so far away
maybe she would have been stronger
but you can never know






Gene Haynes